Wanna know something? Being able to start over is a blessing. Although I have to admit, having to start over after a failure, a miserable destructive ending of something you put all your energy into… literally bites (#sux) ... doesn’t feel good. Lol, had to just pull you all in. But no matter howwwww it feeeeels, its still a good thing, or at least it can be, it all has to do with one’s perspective.
There’s a “clumsy me” story that I told my family like 20 years ago that they still laughs until they cry when ONE OF THEM brings up. And just to prove to myself that I am over the total embarrassment of it, I will share with you. When I was in high school a long long time ago, in the 1980’s (the best decade for music), it was a fabulous Southern Cal day and I worked at the busiest high fashion mall in the South Bay, Del Amo Fashion Center (Del Amo Mall as it was called back in the day). Our fashion icons were, Boy George, Cindy Lauper, Madonna, and Michael Jackson. I had this white jacket, I mean it really stood out. With squared off shoulders and layers and I often wore the one glove. Anyway, while riding to work and jamming to Beat It (Michael Jackson) I was picking up speed until the corner of a planter stopped my bike mid-stride. The bike stopped but I didn’t, over the handlebars I went. And I went sliding across the parking lot like coming into home base. It very well could have been a “face-plant” except I was an expert at falling right. Man! On a busy street, but because it was coming up the side of the building I was hoping no one noticed. I got up, dusted myself off, checked for tears in my clothing and began to look around. And right in front of me was the shuttle bus driver laughing his head off. I shook my head, thinking “Anji, you’ve got to be more careful” blushing and feeling real crazy, I waved, got back on my bike and made it to work… on time.
My point is, even if you face plant, get back up and get on the bike again. Here’s the thing tho, in order to make it somewhere, you have to have a vision of where you’re going. The Book says, “Without a vision, people die off, they perish, they cease to exist.” Over time, idleness gives you too much time to stumble and fumble your way through life. I mean folks just be lazy or have no ambition… and they waste their time, talent and life away. SMH. Scooch up close and hear me.
ITS NEVER TOO LATE TO START AGAIN.
You may be scared to death, after failing, being robbed, violated and or abused, or seeing others fail. You may have stage fright, have analysis paralysis or you may just be shy. Even if you have no confidence in your SELF… dang it… FAKE IT UNTIL YOU MAKE IT! Imma be really blunt with you right now… You cannot make it alone, nor can you figure out “what you were made for.” The ONLY place to discover your purpose is to connect with your Maker and participate in a community of believers (like-minded folks.) And I am here to say, that’s not always easy to do. Who hasn’t been angry with God and angry with people? So many of us have had bad “religious” experiences… and yeah people suck (sometimes). But what people tend to do is stop associating and when they do, they also turn their backs on God too, as if He’s at fault for every bad thing that has happened, essentially “throwing the baby out with the bath water.” But don’t be tricked, God is the only One Who can see beyond what we can. Step #1: Humble yourself and ask. And even if you don’t believe in God (I’m sure you have your reasons) but try it anyway. Just say to the universe… “God if you are real, come into my life and show me the way.” AND BE OPEN! If nothing happens you haven’t lost a thing… but I promise you, something interesting will happen. Resist the temptation to “explain it away” just go with it and keep your eyes open.
Starting over with your eyes open, and trying things you’ve never tried before will begin to paint beautiful colors on the canvas of your life. Life is what you make it. Stop being angry at the world and learn to make your SELF happy. And good things will come. Keep your head up and if you need help… as always, I got you. CLICK HERE