Do It Scared

A couple of weeks ago we talked about showing the world what you got and transitions. I confided to you that I felt like Supergirl, hiding my real identity. I’ve been praying to move into another industry for a long time it seems and yesterday the communication came offering a job right where I wanted in that industry. And now I’m like…. Oooops things are getting real. And then the fear of maybe not having what it takes - HIT hard.

But the truth is… it’s exactly what I prayed for. No sense in getting scared now! But when I see my life it needs to be about PURPOSE. Myles Munroe says it this way:

“Without PURPOSE, life is an experiment or a haphazard journey that results in frustration, disappointment and failure. Without PURPOSE, life is subjective, or it is a TRIAL & ERROR game that is ruled by environmental influences and the circumstances. Likewise, in the absence of PURPOSE, TIME has NO MEANING, ENERGY has NO REASON and LIFE has NO PRECISION.”

And God knows that I have had my share of frustration and disappointment in my life… even failure. Sometimes I feel like I’ve even had some of yours too (just kidding, but not really.) And so, I have looked heavy and hard into this PURPOSE thing. I’ve heard someone say that the grave yard is the richest place on earth because that’s where all the unrealized hopes and plans go when people die. And I don’t want to be full of vision, service, and ways to change the world when I die. I ant to live out my purpose and I want people to be touched by the life I’ve lived. Once AI had a Non-Profit organization that I hoped I could do what I love, minister to people AND make a living (and leave a legacy) with. AND IT FAILED… I failed ………… hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. (but I learned a lot.) Best lesson of all… If you want a salary good business can do that BUT the GOSPEL IS FREE.

Long story short, what was mixed up is now straight. For so long I was focused on the “failure” and that made me afraid to venture out beyond the safe boundaries of familiarity. One thing is for sure CHANGE takes courage. Not the absence of fear, but the determination to reach the goal line on the horizon. Apostle Sherman Dumas said “Scared? Do it anyway. Go scared, faith isn’t faith unless you bust a move.” Until you put action to what you desire, it will always just be a fantasy. Yes I want life, wider, deeper, abundant… but what am I will to do. Not just that, but even deeper… what will I BELIEVE IS POSSIBLE and then move? Ahhh now you see that is quite different, that’s what you call “a faith walk.” But you have to believe “ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH GOD.”  And with that is this thing about TIMING. You see you can be doing the right things at the wrong time…. And still fail. And all failure does a number on the brain. Do I, don’t I… what if I try really hard like I did before, and things don’t pan out? Do we stop? Well, that depends on how bad you want that thing.

Remember that thing about insanity… Continually doing the same ole things that you’ve always done but expecting a different result. Wanna see something different, step off the gerbil wheel and go step by step a little further and a little further and a little further. Before you know it, you’ll be in a totally different place. Now if it happens to be the “Land of Milk and Honey” that God’s been trying to get you to, that’s even better. But before you go realize this: “To much is given, much is required.” So, count your cost before you start praying for or running toward the fantasy.

I’ve been working towards a goal for several years. I took classes and the federal/state test and failed several times (and that was on someone else’s dime.) But when I realized I might actually have to pay a price for what I wanted, I had to a decision to make... how far would I go, and what price would I pay…#HOW BAD DID I WANT IT. I used my own time, money, sweat and tears… and now here it is! Its no time to be scared, LETS GO! Even if I shoot for the moon and fall amongst the stars that still further than I would’ve gotten if I hadn’t taken one step (#analysis paralysis.) That’s a win.

Coming Out

I am a huge Superman fan. And there never was a Superman like Christopher Reeves. Don’t get me wrong Henry Cavil has my heart but, when you think of the man of steel… you can’t help but go back to Christopher. One of my most favorite scenes is when he was struggling to tell Lois Lane that he was more than the stumbling bumbling, stuttering all thumbs dude she knew. Beneath the corporate suit and glasses lay a treasure beyond measure.

Aaaaand that’s exactly how I feel when I wake up each morning, slap the snooze a couple of times before rolling out of the bed to clock in a “someone else’s” vision of the dream job. As an entrepreneur it’s harder than that… But I realize timing is everything… well that and using the wisdom to know when that time to move (!) has arrived.

Have you ever stepped out too quickly and things just didn’t work out. I have. Despite all the hoping and wishing and hard work, things just didn’t go the way I had hoped (sounds like most of my dating life, lol.) What a crushing blow that is. But even good can come from “seemingly” bad things. Did you know that a step backwards can actually be the way forward? Or … this may bake your noodle, actually sitting down instead of stepping out, may actually be the best way to proceed. OK, that may sound like mumbo jumbo to some of you all… but rock with me for just a moment.

Did you know that there is a realm, a dimension, a place that things exist but cannot be seen? Just because a thing cannot be seen, doesn’t mean it’s imaginary. But here’s the thing about imagination, we imagine our SELF living the life. We want to be actors and actresses, billionaires, maybe somewhere else in another (more beautiful) body. And then we live a sort of dissatisfied life because we feel like it’ll never happen or our efforts aren’t getting us fast enough. A dream or a “I hope with all my might” will always be fantasy until you take steps to get yourself there.

The reality, though, is some of our hopes and dreams were not meant for us. I know its a hard pill to swallow… ya might can sing, but you may never be an Ariana Grande or John Legend. But that’s not to say that you can’t rock the lane you were built for. You just have to find it. Yep and I’mma say it again, the way the picture begins to take form is by truly knowing who you are… not what “Momma nem” say, or your friends even… you have to get somewhere quiet and be alone with your SELF, hear your thoughts, dare I say, get to know your SELF. And knowing takes time, lots of time. If you want to find your destiny, learn what you were made for and a place to start… pick up my book 4SELF 101, there are some questions in there that draws your mind to the right place that helps you focus on the deeper issues.

Or don’t take my word for it. There are books and books out there that tells in great length how a journey or path lead them to their destiny. If you like to read, Check out this site:

https://iyde.org/blog/how-to-find-meaning-in-life/?gclid=CjwKCAiAsYyRBhACEiwAkJFKon1H3kAmr5h69FNJD_t1AEJeqboH-YJqiFYELjkWrHd6yb6HiPoOEBoCtB0QAvD_BwE

My point is, don’t just sit and dream find a way to explore the possibilities. As you step out, seek wisdom, (and pray) journal, and don’t be paralyzed by the fact you’ve failed before, the timing may have not been right. But if you desire never goes away… there is a reason why. Don’t worry so much about “arriving” … just take a step. After all, a journey of a thousand miles starts with what… one step at a time. Besides, going to a place you’ve never been does take faith. And this is where faith and opportunity come together.