We’ve all been through a lot, especially during the last 2 years with this pandemic stuff... but looking back we each have a story to tell. And through our journey together it has been my pleasure to post things that have hopefully made you laugh, groan and hopeful grow (and I will continue to do so... God willing.) And I think we are each at different stages in our SELF journey. You could be anywhere from SELF-loathing (I hope not tho) to arrogant narcissism... but my goal is to get you to a health place in your SELF-esteem.  

So during this time of Thanksgiving, I want you to, grab a Bible and read 1 chapter each day.... start with the one corresponding with the day of the month. For instance you will read Proverbs chapter 12 today and 13 tomorrow and so forth. Do that for 30 days. And journal what verse stood out to you after each reading. Now I know, some of you are uneasy with religion. This is not a religious thing... this is taking a spiritual path to SELF-introspection. You can pray to a head of lettuce for all I care... I am only interested in “breaking down” some of those doors that have your REAL SELF locked behind them.  

And then Sunday morning, the top of a new week, when its quiet, and you have time to think... I want you to write down 3 things that you’ve struggled with and 3 things that you are thankful for.  

This is Me 

Over my lifetime I have struggled with loneliness and “feeling loved.” And getting to the roots have been like peeling an onion... had/has several layers. One thing that has really just bugged the hell out of me, since my boobies started developing, is being judged by my looks and not by my intelligence or the content of my character.  I am truly blessed that I have good genes. My mother was a tall, modelesk and elegant queen and my father was one of the most beautiful men I’ve ever seen (and boy did he look good in a uniform!) Shout out to all of our Veterans, thank you for your service.  

Part of my issue is that I was a daddy’s girl, who left my life and the neglect, the emptiness and rejection that resulted.  And I felt for a long long time that I was either “too much, or not enough” for most people. But TODAY... I don’t give a flying S^%T if people like or love me... or not. I’ve worked hard to be the best I can be, and I like the person I am. And as the daughter of the MOST HIGH, I realize that in and of itself gives me VALUE, WORTH, and even BEAUTY (inside and out). No stranger or acquaintance has the power to put me in heaven or hell, they don’t pay my bills, and couldn’t change anything of substance in my life so … their opinion holds no weight over me, period. I have the power to have whoever I want in my life and I choose to have those who bring good, build me, love me, encourage and strengthen me. There is no room for anything else.  

My ex-husband said to me last week, you are the strongest person I know. But the truth is I have been through and suffered a lot , which without those experiences, I wouldn’t have the wisdom I do or be the person I am. And I don’t give those pearls to everyone... so I am rich beyond anyone’s imagination. But when the opportunity arises, or a door opens I gladly share. End goal... that God be glorified because in my weakness He has been very strong in me, and through me. And I love that! 

So, when I look in the mirror, for the most part, I love what I see: someone who has been through hell and back and STILL LOOKS GOOD! 

in this season, take intention to strive less … just BE WHO YOU ARE. You can tweek your words, your SELF-talk, but don’t go overboard conforming to other people’s expectations. If you struggle finding something good about yourself, just ask someone you love. But if your SELF-love is in the toilet... you know, I can help you get out of there, CLICK HERE.